we were on the talk on cockroaches. heh.

what really happened? why did we end up this way?
i dont know. we weren't ready?
as i watch pairs of cockroaches together, i cant help but wonder what actually went wrong?
was it me, or was it the cockroach? what happened then that made us kill each other?

whatever happened.
tears did fell, sleep was lost, smile was gone, everything did seem meaningless.
nothing's wrong with that. im not saying that you had hurt me.
it just shows that i didnt cheat in the whole thing. and im happy about that.
all the stupid things we did. the cute promises. the never ending messaging.im happy i had that.
really i am.

i dont know about the cockroach, but i really did give a lot to the whole thing.
and you know what, whether the cockroach was or not, it doesnt really matter. i dont really mind anymore.

this is not an emo post.this is not even an emo blog.
as RC said, its just the honest truth, the inconvenient and annoying truth.

all im trying to say now. i moved on.
not that i hate the cockroach or anything.
i mean, i cannot bring myself to say that i have no feelings whatsoever for the cockroach.
cos that will be wrong and will make me a hypocrite.
yea. i guess that there will be a part of me that will always love cockroach.
there will a piece of me thats still lingering on the cockroach.
the piece of love for our memories.
but i have to move on. i cannot, linger on too much.

i moved on. the cockroach too.

although it might not seem like it
but we lived happily ever after.
tears dried, sleep restored, smile seen again, the world regained its tint of colour again.

p.s. the last time we met, it was awkward, no more of that, ok?

toodles. poot. chinese calls. c:

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